Music

I don't consider myself a musician anymore, but I still love music and music theory. My favorite genres are progressive trance and futurepop and the wash of genres that connect those two as you can see here. My parents were industrial and EBM enjoyers, and while that stuff's too hard for me, I enjoy the genres that branched off of it into a dancier sound. And, of course, the aesthetics.

"Stylistically, both men and women in the Gothic subculture […] rely heavily on feminine signifiers, such as makeup, skirts and corsets, while the 'Industrial scene' adopts a much more masculine style that incorporates more traditional Punk elements, such as combat boots and leather pants. […] Unlike their Gothic counterparts, the male ‘Industrials’ did not wear makeup.”

"Gothic expresses the emotional, beautiful, supernatural, feminine, poetic, theatrical side. Industrial embodies the masculine, angry, aggressive, noisy, scientific, technological, political side. Industrial music often uses electronics, synthesizers, samples from movies or political speeches, loops, and distorted vocals. It tends to be male-oriented in those who make the music and those who enjoy it.”

Egg me took to this idea. My parents referred to their whole circle as "goths" or cybergoths and emphasized the importance of pageantry in goth circles. Which is true! Though it's music-based, there's obviously a big stylistic component. I like the emphasis on danceability more, but they're both great. The idea that I was partaking in this masculine, external show of force and power was euphoric before I had the word, even if I don't love the essentializing of music genres to gender.

This idea also hit my sense of personal style in lasting ways. I have one (1) pair of combat boots I wear to every event, to the point where people can tell I'm there if my shoes are by the door. Leather everything, military inspiration (I have an WW2-era flight jacket I can't wait to bust out), trench coats, kink and fetishwear, all of these are critical parts of my style as well as my self-perception. I'd still like to project that impersonal, overwhelming force you can hear in EBM in my scenes.

My favorite bands are Above & Beyond and VNV Nation and Lady Gaga, even though I'm not a band person. I just find songs from mixes or Youtube videos. Other bands that show up a lot are Icon of Coil, Rammstein, Covenant, Apoptygma Berzerk, Seabound, and CHROM. I've been messing around with Combichrist and KMFDM as of late, too.

Wrapped

In the absence of Spotify Wrapped, here are my most played for some of the months of 2024...

May 2024

40 Hours of Listening Time

  1. Kings and Queens by Ava Max
  2. King Kunta by Kendrick Lamar
  3. In My World by CHROM
  4. International Love by Pitbull
  5. Fils de joie by Stromae
  6. The Guardian of Angels by NIVIRO
  7. SLAY! by Eternxlkz
  8. Bravery (Solitary Experiments Remix) by Assemblage 23
  9. Hands Up! by Ayesha Erotica
  10. Sweet Dreams by La Bouche

June 2024

35 Hours of Listening Time

  1. Simply Falling by Iyeoka
  2. Euphoria by Kendrick Lamar
  3. Master and Servant by Depeche Mode
  4. Bravery (Solitary Experiments Remix) by Assemblage 23
  5. In My World by CHROM
  6. Drunk in Love by Beyonce
  7. Everything Black by Unlike Pluto
  8. It's a Sin by Pet Shop Boys
  9. International Love by Pitbull
  10. Sour Candy by Lady Gaga and BLACKPINK

July 2024

70 Hours of Listening Time

  1. Achilles Come Down by Gang of Youths
  2. Bravery (Solitary Experiments Remix) by Assemblage 23
  3. Giving You by VNSSA
  4. Control by VNV Nation
  5. Military Fashion Show by And One
  6. Dragons Do Not Fear Blood by Ramin Djawadi
  7. Succession (Main Title Theme) by Nicholas Britell
  8. True Meaning of Loyalty by Ramin Djawadi
  9. You Want it Darker by Leonard Cohen
  10. King Kunta by Kendrick Lamar

September 2024

63 Hours of Listening Time

  1. Alibi by Sevdaliza, Pabllo Vittar and Yseult)
  2. DRESS! by Eternxlkz
  3. Montagem Mysterious Game by LXNGVX
  4. Succession (Main Title Theme) by Nicholas Britell
  5. S&M by Rihanna
  6. Hands Up! by Ayesha Erotica
  7. Savage by Blasterjaxx
  8. Balla da-Li by Boomboxx feat. Linda O.
  9. Aura by Lady Gaga
  10. Good Luck, Babe! by Chappell Roan

October 2024

55 Hours of Listening Time

  1. Alibi by Sevdaliza, Pabllo Vittar and Yseult)
  2. Me and the Devil by Soap and Skin
  3. Krieger (2022 Remastered Version) by Blutengel
  4. Succession (Main Title Theme) by Nicholas Britell
  5. Papillon by Solar Fake
  6. Supermassive Black Hole by Muse
  7. SLAY! by Eternxlkz
  8. Montagem Mysterious Game by LXNGVX
  9. Run Boy Run by Woodkid
  10. Giving You by VNSSA

November 2024

52 Hours of Listening Time

  1. The Noise Inside My Head by Assemblage 23
  2. Alibi by Sevdaliza, Pabllo Vittar and Yseult)
  3. Vater Unser (2023 Remastered) by E Nomine
  4. St. Chroma by Tyler, the Creator
  5. Savage by Blasterjaxx
  6. Krieger (2022 Remastered Version) by Blutengel
  7. Static by Assemblage 23
  8. MANiCURE by Lady Gaga
  9. Eclipse by Apoptygma Berzerk
  10. Aura (Reloaded) by Lady Gaga (Remix by FrankenWayne)

December 2024

59 Hours of Listening Time

  1. Clean Up in Aisle Sexy by Bloodhound Gang
  2. BERSERK -Forces- by Susumu Hirasawa (GOD HAND MIX by Abra Kadabi)
  3. Addict by Silva Hound feat. Michael Kovach
  4. Vater Unser (2023 Remastered) by E Nomine
  5. Savage by Blasterjaxx
  6. Judas by Lady Gaga
  7. Alibi by Sevdaliza, Pabllo Vittar and Yseult)
  8. For Your Entertainment by Adam Lambert
  9. Ymir by Danheim and Gealdýr
  10. Memories by CHROM

2024 Overall

496 Hours of Listening Time

  1. Alibi by Sevdaliza, Pabllo Vittar and Yseult)
  2. Succession (Main Title Theme) by Nicholas Britell
  3. Savage by Blasterjaxx
  4. Papillon by Solar Fake
  5. Slave by CHROM
  6. In My World by CHROM
  7. Montagem Mysterious Game by LXNGVX
  8. The Noise Inside My Head by Assemblage 23
  9. Fils de joie by Stromae
  10. John the Revelator by Depeche Mode

January 2025

57 Hours of Listening Time

  1. Disco Cone (Take It High) by ENISA and WENZL
  2. Sour Candy by Lady Gaga and BLACKPINK
  3. Greyhound by Swedish House Mafia
  4. Judas by Lady Gaga
  5. Succession (Main Title Theme) by Nicholas Britellt
  6. The Darkness & The Light (Solitary Experiments Remix) by T.O.Y.
  7. Addict by Silva Hound feat. Michael Kovach
  8. Seth by Blasterjaxx
  9. Chrome by VNV Nation
  10. Astronomia (Medieval Style) by Cornelius Link

Music Production

I'd like to be able to make my own electronic music some day and had a little stint in college where I played with Tracktion.

Amplitude-Loudness

Cps/cycles per second gives you a cue for wavelength 20 cps deep bass 20000-high treble

Humans can hear from 20 hz to 20 khz In synths it starts with a trigger like a midi keyboard, a sound source that's triggered like an oscillator, a filter, then an Amp envelope which can be called ADSR which stands for Attack and Decay Sustain and Release, then it goes to Amp, the output stage

Attack: how quickly the sound reaches full volume

Decay:how quickly the sound drops to the sustain level after the peak

Sustain: What happens when you hold the note the constant volume

Quick attack, little decay sounds like an organ

Longer decay, zero sustain sounds like a guitar

Waveforms

Saw: weird gritty sound

Square:more muffled, traditionally robotic sound

Sin:like a dial tone

Triangle: Playful

LFO: Unhearable but creates a vibrato effect depending on waveform

Formant-resonance: based around a specific frequency

Playlists

Me + My Best Friend: Blend

Dream Silhouette by Golden Slumber

Diamond Tears by DeathbyRomy

Delta Crossing 58.6Hz- 62.3Hz by Dylan Charbeneau

Megalomaniac by KMFDM

Deep Sleep Binaural Delta 78.5Hz - 79.9Hz by Gateway IV

Ashes by The Longest Johns

Delta Sleep Waves 94-95 Hz by Lee Hale

Gone To Jericho by The Peculiar Pretzelmen

Delta 78.3-80.8Hz by Astron

Such Great Heights - Remastered by The Postal Service

Dark Blue (Delta 124 Hz - 127 Hz by Earth Alliance

You Want It Darker by Leonard Cohen :

Poilsis by Nojus Lanka

Targaryen Dance by Ramin Djawadi

Luminosity by Atmospheric Lights

Drowned in Water and Light by Vessel

hand crushed by a mallet by 100 gecs, Laura Les, Dylan Brady

RUNNING IN THE 90'S by Max Coveri

SNOWCONE by REI AMI

The Town Inside Me by AISHA, Arc System Works

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Lost in Time by Dreaming Hiker

In My World by CHROM

Forms by Cardamom

Assimilate by Skinny Puppy

flights by Aquas

Family Tree by Ethel Cain °

DeltaDeep 80Hz- 84Hz by Dylan Charbeneau

Weather The Storm by Xiliah Roth

Shawty by Remi Wolf

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Serenity Delta Sinus 153-157Hz by Deltachromatique

Hit by Kenny Mason

Delta Scribe by D/S/T/N/C/E

BLUE by Zaia

Delta Sleep 72.4 Hz-75.2 Hz by Particles And Waves >=

Warm Pants by Dua Saleh

idon't think ilove you anymore by Alaina Castillo

Not About Angels by Birdy

i don't miss u by carobae

retreat by Dear Gravity

A Pack of Hounds by Ramin Djawadi

Blis by Stilhed, Norvik

In the Woods Somewhere by Hozier

Wiggle by binki

Freaking Out the Neighborhood by Mac DeMarco

Sweet (feat. Landon Sears) by Bren Joy, Landon Sears

Delta Sleep Binaural 92.4Hz - 94Hz by New Lab

Strangers by Ethel Cain

Cigarette Daydreams by Cage the Elephant