My Personal Experience
A friend of mine once said I would have to explain my child-self to them. Everyone who knows me at all can tell that something is off. I have felt this way myself.
I'm an ageplayer, age dreamer, and possibly an age regressor. Those are all different things, but I'm including them all under the "baby zone," label, since there's a lot of overlap for me.
Why Am I Interested in the Baby Zone?
I am 25, near 26. By all conventional metrics, I am juvenile. My name refers to the first bits of fuzz on a person's cheek. I don't drive and I live at home with my family. I swear like I just got permission to do it. I was late to the relationships and all they entailed. When it was time to go out, to drink and dance and go to parties, COVID got in the way. I dropped out of college shortly after. Absent of an external motivator or even inertia, I shut down.
I have no reason to feel bad about this. Everyone I'm close with is supportive and understanding of my situation. Nevertheless, I do feel bad. I have noted with bitterness that I live the same life I did when I was fourteen. It's less cute the second time around.
I don't feel bad about everything, though. Dressing in huge metal t-shirts and baggy pants, repeating jokes and memes until everyone wants to kill me, and eating candy and hot chip for dinner are great fun. Before and during my first year on T, I had a young face, which didn't bother me.
Quick Facts
Age Range: 11-14, with some infantile behaviors.
Type of Regression: While regression largely feels nice, it can feel bad. I have fragile moods. So both "pure" and "impure," though I dislike the terminology.
Voluntary or Involuntary: I don't really seek out regression, but I let it happen. Between regressing and not regressing, regressing gradually becomes the easier of the two options until I eventually choose it. However, I largely regress in the presence of my caregiver, and don't do so under stress. So it could be either, really, or something else like age dreaming or elaborate roleplay.
Explanation:
Bio Age: My bio/chrono age is mid-20s!
Little or Big: As said before, my age range is 11-14, which makes me more of a middle than a little.
Solo or Group: I only enter the Baby Zone with my caregiver, though the idea of my polycule welcoming and accepting that part of me is exciting. I've also tried to enter the Baby Zone when alone, but it's difficult.
Scene or 24/7: Scene, when I can control it. When I enter the Baby Zone involuntarily, it happens regardless of setting.
Orientation: As I'm a transhet lesbian, this is a little fuzzy for me. I'm definitely attracted to women, and my attraction to women feels and felt queer.
Gender in Role: Though I'm a binary-ish trans man now, my little selves are thoroughly nonbinary and have a feminine presentation.
Sexuality: Depending on which version of the Baby Zone I'm in, I range from sexually aware but not active to very sexual.
Power Exchange: I'm mostly submissive in-role, but I'd like to exapnd to more of a dominant place while still being little.
